Wow... where to begin...

So, apparently, when I go on winter break for school, even though I have all that extra time, I decide to take off the entire time from my blog too.  Interesting phenomenon..... Anyway, how to catch up....

Well, I had my HSG to get done and was completely freaked out.  All I read on the internets was that it was painful, you would get cramping, etc.  I went there on the 22nd and was almost to the hyperventilating state.  They brought me into the room and I waited on the table for the dr to come in, shaking and fearing what was coming.  The dr finally came in and told me she was going to start and.... that's it?  That's what I got all worked up about?  Really?  It was worse getting my blood taken (but that's always worse... they can *never* find my veins... it really blows...).  I felt very happy to get it finished with, but ridiculous for letting myself get so freaked out.

Then, the very next day my aunt, cousin, and mom came over to have a holiday baking day and I get a call from my NP office ( which is more than a little awkward since I haven't told anyone yet about our TTC except for a few friends, not any family yet).  So the office called and said they had my results back from my HSG (already?  Really?  Okay then...) and they were.... wait for it.... NORMAL!  Good grief, who would have thought that being so normal could be so frustrating!  I asked DH and my friend who knows we are TTCing, if I am so f***ing normal, why can I not seem to get pregnant or have a consistant AF?  Tell me how that's normal.... But I digress...

My NP office said that since the HSG was normal (of course) they would call in my prescription to start the Clomid and I could pick it up that afternoon.  Holy s*** that was quick!  I didn't even have to go in and talk to my NP like I figured I would.  Which is good, but it threw me off a little.  I do like my NP a *lot* though, so I am always happy to go talk with her.  She is always ready to explain and help me. :)

The one downside to getting the Clomid without seeing my NP is that I never know if I'm going to even get AF, let alone when it will happen (hence the Provera to be able to get the HSG done).  I figure if I don't see AF by about CD30 or CD35 (and I take the obligitory HPT and it is a BFN!) I'll call and see if I can get some more Provera or something like that... Or at least find out what to do....  It's can be such a pain in the a** to be so normal sometimes... :)